My 1st Born Behind Bars

It seems like only a few days ago I had my son and now he is 32. I was 16 by 2 weeks when he was born and I was very scared. My father was a minister and it was not as common then as now and I was shunned by some family and all friends from school. I loved my child from first sight and ever since. He was always head strong from running around in a walker at 4 months to walking at 9 and talking very well at 1 year old. He was reading at 3 and was bored very easily. I put him in headstart at 3 and I think it was a mistake. Ray always wanted to do things on his own and never liked being told what to do and it only got worse as he got older. Ray is the type of person everyone he meets likes him. He got involved with drugs at a very young age and it has taken over his life in one way or another. He has 2 ex wives which both were young and had no idea what love was they also was pregnant. So with no love they were destined to fail. Then people look at me and say you made it and I have to explain that I would have taken any abuse to have the children have their father but I also grew to love him very much. It has been a hard marriage though not like what you see on TV or the movies trust me nothing! Well Ray never has learned to manage money or trust women except me and its me he hurts the most. He was in jail for 3 months last year and that did him good for about 6 months then he got with the wrong people again and so he failed his drug court he was on for 18 months. The judge told him he would spend 3 years if he failed and now he has been in jail for over a month awaiting sent icing on August 12th. I could not bear for my son to be away from me that long it would kill me. Last week a man hung himself or tried Ray found him and got him down and gave CPR till paramedics arrived and saved his life. I hope this will be good fro his case. Ray has never robbed or stole or hurt anyone physically he is always there to help me or his sisters and he loves his children. I can only hope that if God sees fit to give him another chance that he will do the right thing this time.